WARNING: This post is a complete rant that I need to get off my chest. SOrry ’bout that.
All my life, i’ve never had much trouble dealing with peer pressure and fitting in. Not because I give in to conformity, but because I never really cared about what other people thought about me enough to make me change who I am for their sakes. I’ve always had a comfortable group of friends since the start of high school (I’m in year 11 now) who’s always had my back.
Well, until now. Now I’ve always heard about racism and how it affects people, however despite the fact that I am eurasian (half white, half asian), not one in my life have I ever been targeted. People generally accept races where I’m from.
But today, as in only a couple of hours ago, I found out something that I still can’t wrap my head around. My “friends”, the girls I’ve trusted for 5 years now, have suddenly decided to kick 4 asian girls plus myself out of our “group”, because they don’t want to be associated with us.
I thought they were joking at first. But no, they are completely and wholly serious. My once friends truly don’t want to hang out with asians anymore. I want to be upset. I want to slap them across their smug faces and tell them to rot in hell. However I’m here, venting to cyberspace.
I suppose its because I know that in only a year and 1/2, I will rid of this torture.
People always say that high school make up the best years of your life, but those people are damn liars. I can’t wait to escape. To graduate, and to never have to see the bitches that make up my school population ever again. I’ll leave, and travel the world. See new experiences, meet new people, and not think once about the girls who made my high school experience hell.
Maybe they are doing me a favour? Without the distractions of friends, I can put all my focus into study. Well however this year plays out I just pray I’ll make it out alive. High schools a prison, but it won’t last forever.
So my question to you is, have you ever experienced racism? How did you deal with it, if so? And who knows some ways to make time pass quickly, considering I’ll be spending the remainder of my lunch times alone. Maybe I should take inspiration from Mean Girls and start a burn book? Hehehe we’ll see. Until then, stay safe happy and just be nice to people. Who knows how much longer they’ll be in your life for.
I’m with you, high school was *not* the best part of my life, it’s the part I survived to get to the best parts of my life.
I can’t conceive of your “friends” doing such a thing. I suppose the only miniscule token of comfort I can offer is you are better than they are, and such “friends” aren’t worth your time or concern.
Still, I am horrified and so deeply sorry this has happened. There is never a good way to find out your friends really weren’t, and it hurts every time. Think of it like a break-up. Give yourself time to mourn, if you need it, but move on and know you’re better for it. (hug)
Thank you for the support and advice! All I can do now is count down the days left (Around 600) until I am free. (Hugs right back at ya)
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